realization
April 14, 2010
i miss God
i miss days waking up refreshed and ready to read and start the day
i miss the simple happiness
God, I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry i turned away, looking for joy in fickle friends, popularity, GPA’s, research
“for i consider all these lost compared to the surpassing knowledge of knowing Christ”
fill my life like you once did, days where i woke up refreshed, saluting and saying “Katey Chen, reporting for duty”
and though you still hold me, i don’t feel your presence anymore.
speak to me like you did
exterminate all my underestimates, overestimates, fallacies
fill me with Your heart and mind
give me the heart to love people
erase this stupidity of mine, my shyness
give me your lips, your feet to walk.
ever loving God, renew me that i might be pounded by the overwhelming waves of your love.
